Well, now I know why that darn yeast infection wouldn't go away... my doctor diagnosed me with Diabetes, and getting a stubborn yeast infection is one of the symptoms of Diabetes.  I've been really stressed out with the whole thing.  The Nurse Practitioner at my doctor's office was the one to diagnose me.  She said my blood sugar was really high and wanted to put me on medication right away to get the numbers down.  She referred me to a Diabetes Educator so that I could learn more about the disease and how to care for myself.  I took two doses of the medication and seemed to have some kind of reaction to it.  I got two little red splotches on my arm.  They only appeared for 10 to 15 minutes but that was enough for me to freak out.  And freak out I did.  I am the best freaker outer in the whole world I think and I challenge anyone to prove me wrong.

Anyways... I called the NP's (Nurse Practitioner) medical assistant and told her I was going to stop my medication because of what happened until I saw a DOCTOR.  She freaked out and set me in a panic.  "You need to take that medication.  We're more worried about your numbers than we are about an allergic reaction!"  However, I still refused to take the medication.  She got kind of mad with me on the phone but I held my ground.  She made an appointment for me to see my doctor and I saw him today.

I love that man.  He supported my decision when he looked at my chart that I've been keeping on my blood sugar levels.  (I have to prick my finger and test my blood with a meter that measures the sugar level.  I have to do it various times through out the day at first so they can get a good feel for what it runs through out the day.)  My chart indicated in just a couple days that just by controlling what I ate I could bring my levels down.  My doctor told me that he doesn't see any reason why I can't continue doing what I'm doing as long as I keep the same results.  I wanted to hug him.  He made me feel much more calm.

I'm 30 years old.  I don't want to depend on medication every day for the rest of my life.  I want to be normal.  =o(  But no matter how much I want that, I can't deny that my life as I knew it has changed forever.  I know that sounds melodramatic but would you expect anything less from me?!  It's true though, my whole life has to change.

I know that God must have a plan through all this.  I have been so stressed out lately that my hair is falling out more than normal.  But I'm trying to remind myself that God is in control and that whatever happens, it is His will.  I just pray that I can be strong enough to deal with it.

One good thing I found out today.  The doctor was going over my chart and comparing my weight at different times this year.  I have lost 44 pounds all together since the beginning of the year.  I'm happy about that for sure.

So that's not all that's going on either...  We moved out of our apartment and in with my parents.  Dwayne needs to help them fix up the house so they can sell it when they get ready to move to AL.  The only way we can afford to do that is to live here.  The only way Dwayne will have any time to work on the house is to live here.  So here is now where we live.  I live in Maine again.  Maine state taxes again.  =o(  Ahh well.  No biggie.

Today I brought my car in for an oil change.  Yay for me because I never do that.  I always leave the manly chores for Dwayne.  And I consider oil changes to be a manly chore.  But I was feeling brave after the good visit I had with my doctor.  (Did I mention how much I love that doctor?  He's wonderful!)  Of course they talked me into changing the air filter too.  I felt guilty refusing the radiator flush but gee whiz, one thing at a time.

How do you like my colorful fall background?  Lovely isn't it?  Paint Shop Pro is a good thing!

Well, that's all for now.  I've got places to go, people to see, beds to sleep in...  Good night!