This week has been a rough one.  Dad got sick and has been in the hospital all week.  (He's doing better now, thank God!)  Work has been crazy.  There are so many changes taking place in my life, my head is spinning from it all.

I wasn't thrilled about today's sermon.  By that I mean it scared me.  It was a great sermon but it was based on Revelations; that should tell you why it scared me.  Sometimes I'm very sure of my salvation, but other times I wonder just a little bit what is going to happen to me when I die.  I'm not so sure that once you're saved, you're always saved.  There is a part of me that believes that if one continues to live in sin and doesn't correct it, one can fall out of God's grace.  Sometimes I get so caught up in the here and now that I forget to be prepared for what is going to take place in my eternity.  I struggle between right and wrong.  But right and wrong in God's eyes, not the world's.  I know that God forgives, but I hate disappointing Him.  I just hope God will forgive me for being lukewarm.  In the Bible God says that He wishes we (we, meaning christians) were either hot or cold and that being lukewarm is worse than being cold in your walk with God.  And the thing is, I do everything else in my life with passion, so why aren't I more passionate about God?  Actually I am passionate about God sometimes but I rarely let anyone see that in me.  When God and I are alone together I believe He can see that in me from time to time.  But my whole purpose on this earth is to share my love of God with other people.  I guess every christian goes through these struggles.  But like in a song we sang today, "it will be worth it all when we see Jesus".

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Good Friday was also Friday the 13th this year.  That was the day I drove the countryside taking black and white photos.  That's where the one above came from.  It was a perfect day.  Perfect...