Today is the first day of my vacation.  Actually my vacation began yesterday at 4:31 pm!  Dwayne and I have been shopping.  We bought a few things for the house like curtains for the spare room and a couple of shelving units to put books and decorative things on.  The apartment is really looking nice lately.  Besides the white lights and garland all around the living room, I also hung some white lights around both windows in my room and the spare room.  It looks so pretty and makes it feel so warm and cozy here.  I'm having a blast with my apartment.  I enjoy it so much!

Right now I'm sitting on my new leather couch, typing this entry out on Dwayne's laptop.  He just finished putting the shelves together and I just finished watching "Pushing Tin", an older movie with Billy Bob Thorton.

Angelina Jolie was also in that movie.  I wonder if that is where she met and fell in love with Billy Bob Thorton.  I never did understand what she saw in him.  She's so young and beautiful and he's so old and kinda, well, old looking.  In this particular movie though he did look somewhat handsome.  He had a nice tan and a nice smile.  Hmmm... I wonder if they are still together.  I'll have to check online.  I can never keep track of Hollywood romances.  They seem to come and go so fast.  Like Tom Green and Drew Barrymore.  What is up with that?  They weren't even married for a year.  But then again I don't know how someone could build a relationship with Tom Green.  He's a little zany.  Well, alot zany.

I'm very happy to be on vacation.  I think it will go by really quickly though.  All vacations go by quickly.  Oh well, I'll still enjoy it!

Okay so I had a really weird dream the other night.  My niece, Tammy, just got married a couple weeks ago.  That's real, not a dream.  But I dreampt that she and her husband (not sure if that is correct english but I've got to get on with this dream here people... I don't have time to worry about being gramatically correct...) had about 6 or 7 babies all at once.  Sort of like a litter.  And because there were too many babies for them to take care of, they said I could have one to keep.  And I even got to pick it out.  Weird.  I picked a little girl with lots of black hair and she was tiny and cute!  So I got my pick of the litter of babies Tammy had just labored over to deliver, and I took the baby home.  Someone else besides me was holding the baby and she started crying her little teeny newborn eyes out.  And I said, "Here let me take her."  After all, I was her new Momma.  And I decided in my dream that I was going to call my doctor and have him prescribe some medication for me to start me lactating so I could breastfeed my new baby.  I also decided in my dream that I was going to take a maternity leave from work.

So... that was my dream.  Weird huh?

Thanks Tammy for giving me one of your kids!  Mighty generous of you!  Hehehehe!!

Man, I'm tired.  I have been tired alot lately.  That is one of the symptoms of diabetes.  Course we already know that I have diabetes and I have, for the past year, kept my blood sugar levels low without the use of drugs.  That makes me very happy.  Although lately my numbers have been high at times.  They don't stay high but they reach higher levels than they are supposed to.  For instance, in the morning when I first wake up and test, it shouldn't be any higher than 130.  This morning it was 164.  I know what it will take to lower my numbers... exercise and not eating anything after dinner.  For some reason those two things are very difficult.  Lately I haven't been wanting to eat big meals at all so at night I have been snacking instead of eating dinner.  I guess that's not a good thing.  And I'm too tired to exercise but exercising would give me more energy.  It's a vicious circle and quite annoying, but I have to find a way to deal with it so that I can remain healthy.

Lately (lately I say "lately" alot) my mood has been kind of... just plain happy.  I say it that way because I've been happy but somewhat unemotional.  Is it possible to be happy and unemotional at the same time, since happy IS an emotion?  I guess I haven't figured that out yet.  But since I am me and whatever I say is law (in my own mind), I say that, in fact, I can  be happy and unemotional all at the same time.  That is what I have decided.  Now, in saying that, I'm tempted  to say my unemotional state is becoming somewhat boring.  BUT... I'm not actually going  to say that because then I'll jinx myself and something bad will probably happen that will send me into the depths of despair.  Of which I care not go.

I haven't started my Christmas shopping yet.  I usually use the excuse that I don't know what to get anyone yet or that I'm waiting to get some money to shop... but really I think I put off shopping for Christmas to the last minute because I actually enjoy  shopping when the stores are packed.  I really do like the hustle and bustle of a last minute holiday shopping excursion (ooh la la, that was a fine specimen of the english language).

Okay, I need to get going now, before I say "lately" again.

"Lately" was used seven times during the writing of this journal entry.  Just thought you all should know that.  It's vital and useful information.  =oÞ

I have been listening to Michael Jackson a whole lot lately.  When I was a teenager, I was completely and madly in love with him.  I mean, it was the 80's and he was cool back then... you know?  But as he became stranger in the eyes of society it wasn't so cool anymore to like him.  Well, I have never been one to succumb to what is popular in society.  Michael Jackson is a musical genius.  He is so talented and his music is incredible.  That is how I feel.  That is how it is.  I have spoken.  This is law.  =o)  Hehehe!

I purchased his new CD "Invincible" a couple weeks ago.  I. Love. This. CD.!!!  I love every song and it just seems like he's cool again.  Then the other day I purchased one of his older CD's "Dangerous" and I love that just as much.  So I am indulging in his music once again and I'm having a great time!  And Dwayne loves it all too so that's cool.

Ugh.  My Monday was horrific at work.  I was busy every moment and was getting a little stressed.  Lately it has been relatively quiet and I think I got spoiled.  Today the phones would not stop ringing.  There never seems to be a happy medium.  It is always too busy or too slow.  Bummer.

I have been having lots of dreams lately.  I rarely remember them when I wake up, but I do know that I still dream alot that Dwayne no longer loves me.  I don't understand that because he gives me no reason to feel insecure, in fact quite the opposite.  I feel very secure in our marriage.  So I don't understand why I have those dreams.

Well, happy Monday night!  I'm gonna go spend some time with the hub-inator!  =o)

Whew I've had a busy weekend but it was great!  Saturday Dwayne helped our friends move while I did a bunch of errands (shopping really but, you know... moving right along...) that needed to be taken care of.  After he was done he came home for a short nap and then we went over his sister's house for our nephew's birthday.  We visited there for a while and then came home.

This morning we went to shop for a new couch.  We have looked everywhere for a new couch... the perfect couch... and ended up settling on the very first one we looked at.  It's a black leather couch and the entire thing reclines.  It's almost like a double reclining love seat, only it's a little longer than a love seat.  We haven't worked out all the details yet but I'm pretty sure that's the one I want.  If we do end up getting it, that will be our Christmas present to eachother.

After couch shopping we went to pick up my niece Kara, and her baby Warren, and we went to watch the local Christmas parade.  That was cool... the first parade I have ever been to.  Everyone I say that to is shocked that I have never been to a parade.  There are alot of things I have never experienced.  I never grew up believing in Santa Claus either.  I don't feel like I missed out though.  I'm perfectly content with having known the real meaning of Christmas all these years.  In fact, if I had a child I'm not so sure I would bring him or her up to believe in Santa Claus either.  I think the real Christmas is just as special and warm and exciting and magical!

Here are some pictures of my Christmassy cheer!!!...

My scanner is a piece of crap.  Ahh well.  This gives you an idea.  I wish next Christmas was here already so I could ask Santa for a super-dee-duper (I love that phrase!) digital camera.  But oh yeah, I don't believe in Santa.  =o(