Last night Dwayne and I saw the movie "Cast Away" with Tom Hanks.  I really loved it alot although it was overwhelmingly sad in many places.  It's amazing how they can create a movie to make you feel as though you are the character.  They did that with this movie.  I'm sitting there in the theater, crowded by lots of other people, in my comfortable clothing, warm, safe, healthy... yet I felt the complete isolation this man must have felt living alone on an island for 4 years.  And I even felt the disorientation and sense of being lost when he came back to a world he no longer knew.

I feel that sometimes.  I feel lost.  That overwhelming feeling of, "what next?"  Every day I go through the motions of living my life.  But that is all it is.  I have no direction or plan.  Like the cast away's raft and how it floated on the sea just drifting wherever the current of the water was going to take it.  I mean, at first he had a sail on it, but the sail blew off in the wind of a storm.  He also had oars to row and to steer with, but eventually, when he realized he wasn't getting anywhere, he gave up on them and let them float away.  I am like that in my life.  I let storms blow away my sail, and I give up on my oars, surrendering to the will of the sea. 

I don't know what I'm searching for.  All I know is, I haven't found it yet.