July 12, 2000 - Wednesday

            Amanda is now harassing the general public with the remote control for
            her car alarm.  (By the way, Kathy made a good point the other day about
            that.  Who would need an alarm for an Escort?  But oh well.)  At work she
            parks out in front of the building and can see her car out the window.
            When an innocent pedestrian walks by she grabs her remote control and
            makes the horn on her car go off just as the pedestrian is next to the
            car.  She is evil and I do scold her.  However, it's hard to scold someone
            when you are laughing at the same time.  What can I say?  It's kinda
            funny.  The other day I looked over and saw her staring out the window
            longingly.  A Police Officer was riding by on a horse.  She said, "I wonder
            what would happen if..."  I didn't need to hear the rest of what she was
            going to say.  Of course she did let the officer by without horn
            harassment.  Wasn't that so nice of her?

            Tonight we're supposed to go to see the movie "Me, Myself & Irene" but
            I'm fairly sure that Dwayne will make us late.  He is playing with the
            keyboard right now.  Any time he does that he loses all track of time and
            when I finally say, "Hey it's time to go" he still has to take Keisha out and
            get ready and all that.  Any time we want to see a movie we end up going
            to the late show for this reason.  He can't keep his darn hands off the
            keyboard.  Sadly we are not going to the theater that has the blue
            raspberry Icees.  We are going to a different theater.  It's okay though.
            My blue raspberry Icee addiction is under control at the moment.  I
            cannot say how I will feel tomorrow.  I'm in a 12 step program and I just
            take things one day at a time.  Hehehehe...

Bobservations ~
            Bob is a little grump in the summer.  I guess he doesn't like the hot
            weather.  I wonder if hamsters sweat.  Because his little hamster head
            and little hamster ears are wet sometimes, as if he has run one too many
            laps on his little hamster stationary wheel.  But maybe he has just been
            playing with the water from his water bottle.  Anyways... he's grumpy.
            Do not disturb him while he is sleeping.  He'll turn around and give you
            the most evil face - squinty little eyes and everything, and then he'll turn
            slowly back around as if he cannot fathom how you could dare awaken
            him.  He's quite cute to watch though.  Last night Dwayne was holding
            him for a long time and Bob just sat there cleaning himself.  Bob is cool.
 

August 13, 2000 - Sunday Afternoon

                           ** WARNING FOR ALL MALE READERS**

            Just to let you know I'll be talking about feminine issues you probably won't want to
            hear about.  So maybe you should hit your back button and pick a less girly journal to
            read.  =oÞ

            I have a yeast infection and it AIN'T nice.  Why do girls have to deal with this kind of
            thing?  I feel like I'm being punished.  I'm very miserable and grouchy and just
            everything bad.  One good thing at least is that it's not hot and humid out.  That would
            make me doubly grouchy.  Eww... I just feel like crap.  And I'm too paranoid to medicate
            myself.  The stuff you can buy over the counter has so many warnings on it that I'm
            afraid to use it.  I hate being a girl sometimes!

            And I have felt very far away from Dwayne these past couple of days.  We actually have
            been doing really well.  He's been loving and sweet and thoughtful and giving me loads of
            attention.  But the past couple of days... nothing.  I guess this is just the ups and downs
            of marriage.  It stinks though because I've been really sensitive and needing his
            attention and it just hasn't been there.  I probably have PMS.  Yay.  One more womanly
            responsibility I just thrive on.

            So I have been away for a while.  I'm trying to think of what's been happening.  Not
            much really.  Same old boring stuff.

            Oh, I know.  Dwayne's sister, Renee, and her husband, Jon, moved back with their
            three small children.  I'm happy about that because now we can go over and see them
            anytime.  And I can finally spend some time with my nephews and niece.  They were
            living about 7 or 8 hours away and now they're only about 20 minutes away.  It's very
            cool.

            Okay I can sit no longer.  =o(
 

August 20, 2000 ~ Sunday Evening

                  Church was good today.  I haven't been for a few weeks and I could tell.  I have
                  been feeling really depressed and down lately and it was probably because I've been
                  home from church so much.  I notice a huge difference in my attitude when I miss
                  church.

                  I also have felt as if I'm being punished because everything seems to be going
                  wrong for me.  I can look at my own circumstances and problems and KNOW they
                  aren't as bad as some people face... yet they seem huge and awful to me.  What is it
                  that I am expecting anyways?  A perfect life?  I know there is no such thing so I
                  shouldn't be surprised when I'm faced with hardships and struggles.  I guess I need
                  to learn to be content in all situations.  Not an easy lesson to learn.  =o(

                  Dwayne has been gone alot lately.  That also makes me sad.  His schedule is so
                  filled with work and church and all the things that he involves himself with that
                  he just does not have any time for "us".  Even when he is home it's as if he isn't
                  here because his mind is filled with everything I just mentioned.

                  Everything is magnified too because of the lack of sleep I've been getting.  I'm more
                  sensitive and emotional.  It'll be nice when/if this yeast infection ever goes away
                  so I can feel normal again.

                  The other night we came home and Amanda said there was something wrong with
                  the computer because when she was working on it after a few minutes it would
                  just shut off.  Nice.  That's all I needed.  So we tried to figure it out to no avail.  A
                  couple of techs at work said it sounded like my power supply.  Really nice.  It ended
                  up being the cord actually; it wasn't plugged into the wall all the way.  Whew.  Big
                  sigh of relief because I didn't feel like dealing with computer problems.  Not to
                  mention the fact that we just bought this computer brand new a couple months
                  ago.  I'm so happy my computer is working!

                  Maybe life isn't so bad after all...
 

August 22, 2000 ~ Tuesday

                  More toilet trouble tonight.  It backed up and flooded all over the bathroom floor.
                  Dwayne really wasn't that happy since he had to clean it.  Hehehehe... he gets all
                  the nasty cleaning jobs around here.  There's never even any question as to who
                  does that kind of stuff.  He automatically assumes the responsibility.  I like that in
                  a husband!

                  But poor Dwayne... he spent all that time putting in the new linoleum tiles and
                  now after the flood the water probably seeped down into the creases and will loosen
                  the glue holding the tiles down.  Nothing ever goes smoothly or easily around this
                  place!

                  And there's a HUGE spider web being constructed in the corner of the bathroom.  I
                  can reach it; I could just tear it down but I can't be that mean.  Not even to a
                  spider.  I don't really mind spiders.  The only time I don't like them is when they
                  are crawling across the ceiling.  Because you KNOW that as soon as they reach the
                  part of the ceiling above you, they will fall and then be crawling on you and you
                  won't know where.  They always wait until they are above you to fall.  Crazy
                  spiders.

                  I have a doctor's appointment Thursday morning.  I'm hoping they can do
                  something about this stupid yeast infection.  I tried the over the counter stuff but
                  reacted negatively to it, so they told me to discontinue use and come in for a check
                  up.  I hate going to the doctors.  Things have to be pretty bad in order for me to
                  even make an appointment.  And this infection isn't going away on it's own so
                  something has to be done about it.

                  Well, I'm tired.  I gotta go to bed!
 

August 23, 2000 ~ Wednesday

                     Vacation Day #1:

                     * woke up
                     * used the bathroom
                     * flushed the toilet
                     * woke Dwayne up
                     * heard Dwayne flush toilet
                     * watched Dwayne clean the water from the toilet overflowing
                     * called landlord to inform him about septic problem
                     * kissed Dwayne and watched him leave for work
                     * cleaned
                     * lit smelly candle
                     * wrote email to friend
                     * chatted
                     * chatted
                     * chatted
                     * ate lunch
                     * chatted
                     * chatted
                     * chatted
                     * chatted some more
                     * waited for Dwayne to come home
                     * flushed toilet successfully several times throughout the day
 

August 24, 2000 ~ Thursday

                  Vacation Day #2:

                  This morning I was awoken by the unpleasant smell of human waste and an
                  awfully loud slurping sound.  Of course I had to investigate.  I looked out the
                  window; my landlord had called the sewer suckers to come over and clean out the
                  septic system on the farm.  Yay.  I've never been so happy to see sewer suckers.
                  But know what?  It didn't help the toilet problem I don't think.  I mean, it hasn't
                  flooded but it is very slow to go down.  What a pain in the butt.  I really need to get
                  the heck out of this apartment!!!

                  I saw the Fed-Ex Guy today in Walmart!  We haven't seen him in so long because
                  he had a different route and then he stopped working for Fed-Ex all together.  Does
                  this mean I can't call him the Fed-Ex Guy anymore?  He's such a cutie, but you
                  didn't hear that from me!

                  I had to put the background on today for my mom.  I knew she would write me and
                  mention something about the all black entry.  I'm not trying to be morbid or
                  anything.  I just wanted something simple.  But she needs to see the happy, pretty
                  little backgrounds.  I don't know.  I need a change in my journal as it is boring me
                  lately.  I used to love it.  A year ago it was much funnier than now.  Maybe some
                  day it will get better again.

                  Well, I went to the doctor's today and hated every minute of it.  I hate being a
                  woman sometimes.  Anyways, she wrote me a prescription for the medicine I
                  need.  I hope it works.  I want to feel normal again!
 

August 25, 2000 ~ Friday

                  Vacation Day #3:

                  I got a new CD today.  I swear I didn't buy it just because he has a beautiful
                  mouth.  Honest.

                  So the people who board their horses here moved the fence so that it is almost in
                  our back yard.  Keisha has an odd obsession with rolling in horse crap.

                  horse crap + white dog = dirty, smelly, no-longer-white dog

                  dirty, smelly, no-longer-white dog + Dwayne = water hose

                  Dwayne + water hose = clean, white dog

                  She still smells.

                  I got new sandals today.  And socks.

                  So last night I used the first dosage of my medicine and I didn't have a bad reaction
                  to it.  I was so relieved.  Now I hope it does it's job and heals me because I, and
                  everyone else that has to listen to my yeast infection stories, want to be normal
                  again.

                  I got a new trash bucket today.  It's blue.

                  I also got toilet paper.

                  I went to Walmart.

                  I like my husband in case anyone is wondering.
 

September 12, 2000 ~ Tuesday Evening

                  ** Register to vote! **
                  Tonight I have become a good American citizen.  I registered to vote!  Yay!  I'm not
                  really into politics.  In fact, I was talking to my friend who lives in Pakistan and he
                  knows more about American politics than I do.  I should be ashamed of myself!  But
                  to learn politics one must watch the news.  I have no time in my life for the news,
                  and like I was telling him, even when I watch the news I don't understand so why
                  bother?  But at least I can vote for the next president.  =o)

                  ** Yeast Update **
                  My yeast infection came back.  I medicated myself again.  Hopefully I am on the
                  mend this time for good.  I mean, basically I have been dealing with this infection
                  for an entire month.  It's not been a fun experience.

                  ** Yogurt Search **
                  And since eating yogurt is supposed to help prevent a woman from getting yeast
                  infections in the first place, I have been searching for one I like.  I don't like
                  chunks of fruit in my yogurt.  Yuck.  But I finally found one I like thanks to
                  Jennifer who told me that Yoplait made one that's custard style.  And I like it!
                  Amazing!