January 2, 2000 - Sunday Evening
All I can say is woooooo hoooooo!!! My computer still works and I
still have
electricity. What more could a girl ask for?
Okay look, I'm determined in case you didn't notice by the background on
this
page. I'm determined about a few things. I don't want to call
them New
Year's resolutions, I'll call them New Year's revolutions. I looked
up
revolution in the dictionary and it has several meanings. This is
the one I am
thinking of: "...a fundamental change in the way of thinking about or visualizing
something". See, if I make a resolution it's like making a promise
to myself and
I don't want to make promises to myself and not keep them. A revolution,
at
least in the case that I'm thinking of, is a change in the way of thinking.
So I'm
thinking about changing. Hehehehehe. Pretty tricky huh?
So here are my New Year's Revolutions...
1) I am determined to write more music. I'd like to at least
write one song per
month.
2) I am determined to get more involved with my God page and make
it much
better.
3) I am addicted to creating graphics, therefore I am determined
to use the
same graphic for a whole month and not have a different one every day.
4) I am determined to work on my relationship with God.
5) I am determined to try to eat better and feed my family better.
This
means cooking real meals. This means more organized grocery shopping.
This is
a tough one.
Those are the big ones right now. I'll keep you updated on my progress.
We brought Caitlin home today. When I went to put her down and leave,
she
started screaming. That was hard. She isn't even my child and
she cries for
me; it breaks my heart in the hugest way. I love the bond I have
with her but
it makes living far away from her difficult. I mean, she isn't that
far away,
about an hour and a half. But that's far enough away so that I only
see her
once a month. Her sweet little personality is so special. She
is such a blessing.
I wish I could bond with Emely the same way. She is opposite; she
cries when I
pick her up. She only likes her mom right now. =o( Oh
well, maybe as she gets
older she'll be easier. Rhonda is feeling better. She still
doesn't have a cast
on her ankle but she is feeling better anyways. She has a few people
that come
over and help her throughout the day when Tom isn't home. I wish
I lived
closer to help.
Dwayne went to prison tonight. =oÞ He's involved with
prison ministry.
Tonight he gave the sermon and he said it went well. I wish I could
have been
there to hear him. That would have been cool. Course he gives
me a sermon
almost every day about one thing or another. Hehehehehehehe I crack
myself
up.
Eww, I have to go back to work tomorrow. Actually I don't mind going
back to
work. I love it there. I just don't like waking up in the morning.
And then I
have a hair appointment. I know I won't feel like going to that but
I guess I do
need to go anyways. I'm... ooh, you know what? I was going
to say I'm tired of
worrying about my hair but I just realized that that is a stupid comment.
I'm
thankful for my hair (as vain as that sounds) and I'm not tired of it or
worrying about it.
I am a happy girl today. =o)
useless facts...
** there is a dead ladybug lying on her back on a bed of dust
** my stuffed eeyore looks like he has gray hair because of more dust
** the spell checker on here doesn't like the word "eeyore", it thinks
i'm trying to say
"eyesore"
** i'm drinking iced tea
** manda is drawing frogs
** dwayne is giving her "instruction"
** keisha is licking dwayne
** dwayne thinks some guy on tv sounds like scar on "the lion king"
** spam doesn't taste as good as I remembered as a child
January 4, 2000 - Tuesday Evening
Six Signs I'm getting old:
1) I get full really easily
2) My cheeks are getting softer like my mom's
3) The obvious... I have alot of gray hair
4) When I shave, my hair takes longer to grow back
5) I am more intolerant of other opinions
6) My memory isn't what it used to be
These are just observations. I think alot. I have been thinking
alot about
getting older. Every once in a while the fact that I'll be turning
30 in March
bothers me. Not that the age 30 is old. But for me to be 30
with no children
and not owning a home yet is old. It's my own standards. I
don't want to leave
my 20's. I want to say I'm in my 20's. I'm sad about it.
I want to be young.
That way I can always play Walkie Talkies with my nephew. That's
what I was
doing during Christmas. Every few hours my nephew, Nicholas, who
is 4 years
old, would bring over a walkie talkie and hand it to me and tell me to
talk to
him. The only thing is he would stand right in front of me and talk.
One time I
finally convinced him to go into the kitchen. This is how the walkie
talkie
conversation went:
Auntie B (my walkie talkie handle): "Breaker 1-9, do you copy?"
Nick: "Kay."
Auntie B: "What's your 10-20?"
(10-20 I think means location if I remember correctly)
Nick: "ummm"
He has no clue what I just asked him.
Auntie B: "Where are you? Over."
Nick: "I right here."
Pretty informative. But it was okay, I knew where he was since I
was the one
who told him to go in the kitchen.
Auntie B: "Okay. 10-4 Good buddy. Over and out."
Nick: "Kay."
Hehehehehehe - Nicholas was alot of fun. One morning he and I were
the only
ones up so we had breakfast together and had a nice long conversation about
clementine oranges. It was actually a debate on whether we should
eat the
seeds or not. I won of course. We also made Lego houses and
listened to the
Chipmunks Christmas music. We were buds.
Dwayne and I went to see the movie "Anna and the King" last night.
That was a
completely awesome movie. I cried about three times. It really
frustrated me
that they couldn't just be in love like you knew they wanted to be.
I shouldn't
say anything else. I don't want to give away the movie. It
was so awesome
though. Go see it!
I had weird dreams last night. It's funny because this morning when
I woke up
and was getting ready for work I was thinking about writing them down
because I remembered them at that point. But I told myself that I'd
remember them later too because I was completely awake and still thinking
about them. Yeah, I can't remember them now. Hello. I
need to listen to
myself. But I woke up in the morning with a splitting head ache.
I knew I was
in trouble if I didn't get rid of it so I went back to bed with a cold
facecloth.
It worked for the most part but my head ache was still present all day.
I hate
it when that happens.
I wrote a song tonight. Music and everything in about 15 minutes.
That is how
I know it's from God. It's a God song that I wrote. And guess
what it's
called?
"Determined"
useless facts:
** amanda is making fart noises with her hand - gross
** it's 11:54 pm
** dwayne isn't home yet
** keisha is laying on the couch without permission
** it's a good thing dwayne isn't home yet
** dwayne hasn't taken the air conditioner out of the window yet
** it's raining outside
** i know this because the rain is falling on the air conditioner
** Jeffrey made me record his voice mail message
** I heard it today because I had to leave him a voice mail
January 5, 2000 - Wednesday
The Giggler and I have not been talking. But right before Christmas
I had
contacted him about something. He was really cold and seemed uninterested
in
anything I had to say but apologized the next day and said it had been
nice
hearing from me. I thought for sure that meant that we had made up
and would
be talking again but I didn't hear back from him after that. It kind
of makes
me mad. Not kind of. It does make me mad. If he no longer
wants to be
friends, fine. But I hate it when he doesn't follow through with
what he says
he's going to do.
I would not have thought about this because I decided to just move on and
forget about it. But the other day Jennifer was talking with Steven
on ICQ
and they were bickering back and forth. That reminded me of how the
Giggler
and I used to bicker whenever we were talking on ICQ. It made me
miss him.
And once in a while I wonder what's going on in his life. Oh well.
The other night Jim was eating popcorn at his desk. When we came
in the next
morning there was popcorn all over the floor. When Jim came in that
afternoon
this was how the conversation went between Jim and Jennifer...
Jennifer: "Jim, I have a question for you..."
Jim: "Okay..." he says hesitantly, knowing he's in some kind of trouble.
Jennifer: "I only wanna know one thing... did you get any popcorn
actually in
your mouth?"
Jim ate popcorn again last night at his desk. There wasn't even one
kernel on
the floor. =o)
We had Chinese for supper tonight... my fortune, not that I believe in
them, was
"Happy events will take place shortly in your home". Chinese is not
the same
without Jeff. See, I'm working at night with Jim because Jeff is
on vacation
this week. Normally when I work at night I work with Jeff so that's
why I
miss him. Jim is fun to work with too because he cracks me up.
Tonight he was
working on his first page for his website. He put his company name,
a few
things that his company does, and the telephone number. He thought
it was so
beautiful that he wanted to stare at it all night. It was very funny.
You know what else is funny? Jennifer is going to be getting a new
car when
she gets her income tax return. She's pretty sure anyways.
She has been
planning this for months now. Every day she is interested in a different
car.
Right now she's interested in a Saturn. I'm curious to see what she
ends up
with. I still think she should go for a 99 Ford Escort, but I suppose
I'm not
being objective!
What am I getting with my income tax return you ask? Absolutely nothing
since I'll probably owe again this year.
useless facts:
** kathy got a new stove so she baked cookies and chicken
** eric ate kathy's chicken at work today - she ordered with us instead
** i need to buy a frame for the print that kathy gave me for christmas
** i made the mistake of calling it a poster the other day
** it's got horses on it
** i think kathy is the number one fan of my journal
** either that or she's a good butt kisser
hehehehehehehehehehehehe...
January 6, 2000 - Thursday Night
Okay, the #7th sign that I'm getting old is that when I took Amanda to
buy
some new sneakers tonight, the salesman kept calling me "mom". Hello.
I'm like
12 years older than her. That stinks like a skunk. I wasn't
very happy about it
but Manda was quite amused. Ha ha very funny.
So, let's see... what shall we talk about tonight?
I'm SO incredibly happy that tomorrow is Friday. Today was kind of
a crazy
day. Jim couldn't work tonight so I was by myself from 5 to 8.
I didn't like it
very much. There was no one to fool around and laugh with.
And I just
generally felt aggravated and stressed out. But I'm feeling better
now and
tomorrow will be a better day!
So at the shoe store Amanda only wanted black sneakers. Oh yuck.
I
convinced her, in that influential way an aunt has over her niece (I flat
out told
her she couldn't get ugly black sneakers.), to get a nice pair of white
Reeboks.
She actually is very happy with the choice that she (I) made. Hehehehe!
It's hard I know because at this age, especially since she is making her
own
money, she wants to buy what she wants and not always what is practical.
Some
people would argue with my interference in her purchases. But I feel
part of
my job as her guardian right now is to help her become more aware of dressing
in a more mature and professional manner. We've had several discussions
about
appropriate work attire. For instance; I think her barbed wire necklace
should stay home when she goes to work. I forbid her to wear it at
church.
And the cool thing about it is that she doesn't rebel because she knows
I don't
do that stuff to try to control her, but to help her. So many teenagers
feel
they need to make a statement in some physical way such as a weird hair
cut or
freaky clothes. I want Amanda to make a statement with her personality
and
her abilities, because those are the things that will last. She knows
I only want
the best for her so she complies. She is amazingly easy to parent
at this age. I
lucked out by getting her now. She hasn't always been so easy!
Okay so I haven't said much tonight but I'm really tired so I think I'll
close
for now... night night!
important useless facts:
** i changed the name of my useless facts to 'important useless facts'
because kathy was
beginning to get a complex
** kathy made brown turkey balls last night with her new stove
** eric did not eat any of Kathy's brown turkey balls
** i've never made brown turkey balls
** nor have i ever eaten brown turkey balls
** i like saying brown turkey balls - it makes me giggle
** on a related matter; 14 more days until my dentist appointment
** a fed-ex woman showed up on my doorstep this morning
** the package was for my neighbor =o(
January 8, 2000 - Saturday Night
Well, Friday wasn't any better than Thursday and I'm so happy that it's
Saturday! There is a battle going on at work between ours and another
department. We just don't see eye to eye on some issues and things
can get
pretty heated at times. I'm certainly not going to hold a grudge
against anyone
but I don't know how things will get resolved either. It's an "us
against them"
mentality and it isn't good for anyone. Next time something like
that happens
I'm going to start singing "All We Need Is Love" and holding up a lit lighter.
I
thinks it's hard because we are part of a small company and most of the
time
it's like being in a family so when arguments occur, we all take it to
heart. Oh
well. I'm sure things will get better given some time.
I just got home from Shopping. I put all the groceries away, took
a shower,
called my mom, and now I'm typing an entry before I make myself some dinner
and sit down to watch a good romantic comedy by myself. I was in
my glory
today because when I went to Blockbuster I kept telling myself, "You can
get
anything you want because no one else is going to watch it with you!"
I was so
excited at the thought of being able to pass by all the action kaka movies
and
get exactly what I wanted to see! So I got the movie, "Meet Prince
Charming"
which is supposed to be about a couple meeting online and falling in love.
So
I'll watch my movie, while burning a lovely smelling candle and sitting
on the
couch wrapped up in my quilt. I'm SO happy!!!
Earlier today however I was feeling very cry-babyish. I got a thank
you card
from my sister-in-law, the one we went to visit at Christmas. She
made the
card out of this wrapping paper they had. It made me cry because
I kept
commenting over and over how much I loved that paper and so she made me
a
card out of it. She is so creative and thoughtful! Then after
that I found an
outfit of Caitlin's we had washed and forgot to send back with her.
I picked it
up, sniffed it, and started crying because I can't stand how much I miss
her
sometimes. I can't even think about her without getting emotional.
You've just
got to know this child. She is so precious.
And before all that I was looking at my face in the mirror and thinking
how old
I look. I'm getting wrinkles and you can see the creases in my forehead
where
I scowl. I hate that. =o( I'm feeling so... yucky these
days. Yucky about my
age, yucky about my house, yucky about alot of things. Oops, I forgot
that this
month was supposed to be my "determined" month. I guess I am determined
though, determined to feel yucky.
important useless facts:
** eric ate kathy's pudding yesterday
** amber is picking amanda up from work tonight so i don't have to - yay
** i was supposed to call shari but her line is busy - hmmmmm - must be
reading my journal
hehehe hahahahaha (kidding)
** my mom and sister are having a slumber party tonight
** i wasn't invited
** it's okay because i'd have to bring dwayne
** guys always ruin slumber parties
January 10, 2000 - Monday Night
Dwayne and I went to the movies for our Monday night date. Monday
is his day
off so that's a good time to spend together. I made these cool little
taco bowls
out of those frozen dough rolls for dinner, we relaxed for a little
bit, and then
went to the movies. We saw "The Cider House Rules" and shared a large
Blue
Raspberry Icee. My tongue is still blue! Yum!
We had a nice time and I was glad to have him to myself for a while.
I have
been feeling left out lately. He's busily involved with so many things
I begin to
feel as though I am last on his list of priorities. I know I'm not
and he assures
me of the same, but I guess I'm needy in the "attention from your husband"
department. He's got his regular job which he works second shift,
he's helping
out a small cleaning business doing office work during the day, Sundays
are
filled with church stuff, he's involved with prison ministry, and he's
got 10,322
projects on the side. After all that he has a wife waiting for him
to pause, look
her way, and offer a tender smile. And when that doesn't happen she
gets very
grouchy and demanding and begins to build up resentment; when he finally
remembers her all she can do is complain. His smile, which she has
waited so
long to catch a glimpse of, fades quickly.
I wonder sometimes what all this business is for. I suddenly feel
a huge lack of
direction for us and I know we are on a path but I don't know where the
path
is going. We get so caught up in doing things which as a result causes
us to have
to do more things to keep up. Then we realize we are merely surviving;
we're
alive but we're not living our lives.
But then slowly God reminds me that sure, I have alot of work to do, but
my
primary goal should be to seek Him. When I seek God first everything
else
falls into place. Course there are still battles, maybe even more
battles. But
my focus becomes clear again.
For the next month we are going to a different church. A tiny church
of about
30 people and that's only if they all show up. Our friend, David,
is pastoring
there and we want to go support him in his ministry and since he's Dwayne's
closest friend we want to offer him some moral support. But it's
more than
that I think. We have been going to our church all our married life
except for
the 7 months we lived in Maine. I have been going there even longer
than that.
We love our church, we are comfortable in our church. Maybe too
comfortable. So we're just wanting to spread our wings a little and
worship
somewhere else for a change. We'll see what happens!
This is more introspection than I can bear right now so I'm outa here!
Nite nite!
important useless facts:
** no one ate anything of kathy's today
** a movie costs $7.75 at our local theater
** i didn't get what the cider house rules had to do with the movie
** the building i live in used to be a cider house
** we do have rules in this cider house also
** they are called "my rules"
** dwayne and manda agree with the old saying "rules are made to be broken"
** they are incredibly naughty
January 11, 2000 - Tuesday Night
Last night I had a dream that Dwayne and I adopted a child. It must
have been
caused by watching the movie "The Cider House Rules" last night.
Because a
good portion of that movie takes place in an orphanage and I just fell
in love
with some of those little kids in the movie.
So now I've been thinking about that all day. I would adopt a child
in a heart
beat if I had the money. I wouldn't even have to have a baby necessarily.
I'd
take a child who was 3 or 4. Hehehehe... that sounds like I'm talking
about a
car... "I don't need the newest model; one a couple years old with a few
thousand miles on it will do." But seriously, you know how most of
the couples
who adopt want a baby and will wait years and years for one? Well,
I would
want a child that was 3 or 4, one that probably wouldn't ever be adopted
because they were too old. I'd love to have a child who was a different
nationality or race. I think it would be alot of fun raising a child
who was
different from myself, helping him/her to learn their own heritage and
culture.
We could learn and grow together.
Why, with all the unwanted children in this world, do they make it so expensive
and difficult to adopt a child? Don't they realize that besides money,
I could
provide a child with more than enough he/she would need to become a happy,
healthy, and productive adult? I would love the opportunity to play
such an
important role in a child's life. And I'd love to watch Dwayne be
a father.
He'd be so awesome. I love being an aunt and Dwayne is a great uncle.
It's so
sweet when his niece or nephew calls him "Uncle??" They call him
Uncle and
not Uncle Dwayne because he is "the" uncle.
But one day I would love to hear a child run up to him saying, "Daddy".
More introspection I guess. Oh well.
Dwayne is waiting patiently for the computer even though I haven't been
online
very long. I suppose I'll be nice and make this quick tonight so
my sweetie can
use the computer!
Goodnight!
important useless facts:
** everyone ate kathy's banana bread today except me
** i don't like desserts made out of fruit
** i don't like cooked fruit
** for that matter i don't really like bananas
** i do however like pumpkin bread
** kathy, i like pumpkin bread
** =oÞ
January 12, 2000 - Wednesday Night
I had a weird dream last night. My Nana, Mom, and three sisters came
over to
my house asking me to go out with them. They all have kids but the
only one
they brought with them was Caitlin. I guess I didn't feel like going
anywhere
and I don't remember why. But I volunteered to watch Caitlin while
they went
out and at that time Dwayne was not home. Just as they were all about
to leave
suddenly there were these huge hornets coming into the house. They
weren't
regular hornets, they were as big as birds and had beaks like birds but
they
were hornets. And at one point one of the giant bird-like hornets
looked over
at Caitlin and I was like, "oh no you don't!" so I grabbed her and ran
for the
other room and slammed the door. My sisters I guess hollered to me
to say
they were leaving and I felt deserted and scared but there wasn't anything
I
could do about it. After a few minutes it was quiet out there so
I came out and
there was Dwayne in the living room. I was so relieved to see him
and suddenly
I wasn't afraid anymore and the hornets were gone. And I just spent
the rest
of the afternoon playing with Caitlin and holding her.
That dream made me miss her. Plus my sister called and when she calls
she
always puts Caitlin on the phone. With her sweet little voice Caitlin
says, "Hi!"
and a bunch of other stuff I can't understand. But today, with her
mom's help
she said "I love you". How precious. If I ever have my own
child will I love
him/her this much? What if I don't? What if I never love another
child as
much as Caitlin? I know I talk about her way too much in here!
But she's my
little sweetie pumpkin baby doll cutie pie girl.
Emely is very precious too. She's getting to be so funny. We
think that she's
going to be the boss over Caitlin even though she's younger. Emely
is much more
strong willed! I am still getting to know Emely. I don't favor
Caitlin over
Emely; I just know Caitlin better. Come to think of it though, I
wasn't real
close to Caitlin when she was 7 months old. I guess I just need to
spend more
time with Emely. It's hard though because she cries when Rhonda isn't
around.
=o(
So at 1:30 a.m. as I'm about to fall asleep for the night Dwayne comes
in and
informs me that there is something wrong with our computer because he can't
load a cd he borrowed from someone. The solution? He needs
to reformat the
computer. Now I'm thinking... I haven't backed anything up so we
proceed to
get into a small argument and I just decide to go to sleep anyways and
worry
about it in the morning. He finally got the cd to load without reformatting
and
it's a good thing otherwise he would have been seriously hurt this morning.
=oÞ
Dwayne is being queer right now. Manda is playing some kind of belly
dancer
sounding music and Dwayne grabs a kleenex and holds it up in front of his
face
right above his nose and starts dancing around. Amanda goes, "Oh
great, he's
getting hyper." She can't handle it when he's like that. I
laugh my head off.
Now he's serenading her with a stupid song about her beeping because she's
setting her alarm clock and it beeped. My husband has completely
lost it.
important useless facts:
** i was wrong yesterday, jen didn't eat kathy's banana bread either
** i finally bought a frame for the print kathy gave me for Christmas
** it's a poster frame though
** shhh, don't tell kathy
** the frames with real glass in them were out of my price range
** we are in the process of decorating the office
** don't let me forget to bring a hammer with me tomorrow =o)
January 19, 2000 - Wednesday Night
Oh man I feel so guilty. I let Keisha out to go potty and I forgot
she was
outside for like a half hour. This dog doesn't stay out longer than
5 minutes at
a time. Poor little girl. =o( So when I let her back
inside I gave her a couple
treats. She's such a good doggie. But shhhh... don't tell Dwayne
I did that.
I'm not supposed to let her out alone, I'm supposed to go out with her.
I love
that little puppy.
Okay so I know it's been a while since I've written an entry but I've been
completely busy.
I had a weird dream last night. In my dream I suspected I was pregnant
so I
decided to go to the doctors to get checked out. But for some reason
I went to
the emergency room instead of the regular doctor and it was on a Sunday.
Don't ask me why but it was in some abandoned building made out of bamboo
and when I got inside no doctors were there, only nurses. Both male
and female
nurses. So two female and two male nurses told me to follow them
to an exam
room. On the way I politely requested that I only be seen by a female
nurse
and that the male nurses remain outside the room. They said that
was fine.
When I opened the door to the exam room though, my mom, my sister Terry,
and
Shari and Tim were waiting inside and on a table there was a cake that
said
"Congratulations On Your Pregnancy". I was hesitant at first because
no one
was supposed to know; I didn't even know for sure. In my dream I
could feel
the baby move even though I wasn't supposed to be that far along.
Then the
dream ended. It was so weird. I know exactly why those particular
four
people (Mom, Terry, Shari and Tim) were in my dream though. Mom,
Terry and
Shari are probably the three people who want me to have a baby the most.
And
Tim was there because he automatically comes with Shari. The rest
of the
dream makes no sense at all. What is up with the bamboo? I
don't get that.
But to me dreams are entertaining and I love to dream as long as it's not
a bad
dream.
Dwayne gave me some good news this morning! His schedule has changed
so now
he has Saturdays and Sundays off! Before he had Sundays and Mondays
off
which stunk because I have to work on Mondays. So I was really happy
this
morning to hear that! But that means no more Monday night dates.
Now they'll
have to be Sunday night dates, or Saturday night dates. Oh well,
I'm still
happy about it!
Amanda is going to be working part time where I work. I actually
hired her.
Hehehehe! But I think it will work out really well. Work has
been kind of
stressful lately. I hate it when it gets like this. It's fun
to have Amanda there
though. (I used the word "work" four times in this paragraph just
to let you
know.)
We've been talking in British accents back and forth. It's really
funny.
Manda's really good at it. It makes me laugh but drives Dwayne crazy.
The
other night he came home from work and was trying to have a conversation
with
me. When I responded to him in a British accent he chuckled at first
but then
grew tired of it because he didn't think I was taking him seriously.
It was SO
funny!
Okay I have to go now. Good night!
important useless facts:
** i got new boots
** and a foot spa
** it vibrates
** which gives me anxiety
** i like the bubbles though
** and my feet smell good
** reeses puff cereal is really good
January 20, 2000 - Thursday Night
Umm, it's snowing outside. It's cold. I don't like it.
But hey, look on the
bright side, I got to wear my new boots. It's okay right now though
because
I'm home, comfy in jammies, with a blueberry candle burning. And
I get to
sleep in in the morning. Life can't get much better than that now
can it?
So Kara and AJ are getting married on July 4, 2000. Cool huh?
I thought I
had already mentioned that here but I guess I didn't. They were over
the
other night along with my mom and a couple of my sisters and about a million
nieces and nephews. At the end of the night my mom asked AJ to start
the car
for her so that it would warm up. She told him it was the station
wagon. So she
hands him the keys and off he goes like a good little boy. About
15 minutes
later he returns still holding the keys with a puzzled look on his face.
The
conversation went like this...
AJ: "Ummm which key is it?"
Terry: "It's that one right there."
Mom: "It's the big one."
AJ: "I tried that one and it didn't work."
Terry: "The station wagon parked out in the driveway?"
Mom: "Mine is the station wagon."
(Apparently Mom thinks he's not listening the first time so she repeats
everything Terry says.)
AJ: "Yeah I was in the station wagon."
Terry: "The one right in front of the dumpster?"
Mom: "The red one?"
AJ: "Oh, it's red?"
(We have two drive-ways. Apparently he was in the wrong drive-way,
hence
the wrong car.)
AJ: "Oh I was in a white car sitting there for 10 minutes trying
every key."
Terry: "hahahahahahahahahaha"
Mom: "hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha"
Me: "hehehehehehehehehehehehehehe"
Everyone else in the room: "hahahahahahahahaha"
My neighbor who owns the white car: "What the heck is that kid doing
in my
car?!?!"
hehehehehehehe - I crack myself up! My neighbor probably didn't even
see him
sitting in there but it sounded good being added to the story. See
how I am?
I'm an embelisher. That's so naughty!
Anyways, he finally found the right car. =o)
HA! On the way home Amanda told me she was going to do the dishes.
She got
as far as filling the sink with soapy water and putting a few dishes in
there.
Now she's sitting on the couch writing a song. Hehehehehe... you
gotta love
teenagers. I'll bet that if I mention the dishes she'll say she's
letting them
soak. Funny! I don't mind though. =o)
I'm in a good mood. Just thought I'd share that with you all.
I haven't been
over emotional lately which is a very good thing!
Amanda told me today that there was a person at Wal-mart who got caught
shoplifting. I asked her what he was shoplifting and she said a computer.
How
does one shoplift a computer? How does one who has any brains shoplift
a
computer I should ask? I guess he walked right out the door with
it. Hello?!
How stupid!
Well I have to go! Nite nite!
important useless facts:
** ummm, yeah
January 22, 2000 - Saturday Night
I'm dedicating today's journal entry to my Dad, in honor of his birthday
(and
instead of buying him yet another tie).
Dear Dad,
I never considered myself your little girl until I sat down to write this
letter.
All of my childhood memories are of you because Mom worked second shift
for
most of my childhood. (Dad, before I go any further, please reassure
Mom that
I have many great memories of her too. I know what she's thinking
right now;
she's sad that she couldn't be around all those times that you had to take
care
of me because she was working. It's okay though because she was there
for me
other times when I needed her.)
I remember going grocery shopping with you and the only three meats that
you
ever bought were hamburg, hot dogs, and bologna. I don't know why
I
remember that but I do. =o)
I remember going to the laundromat with you when our well ran out of water
and never worked right and you had to do all of our laundry elsewhere.
I remember going out to eat at McDonald's or Papa Gino's with you except
the
times when I was older and would cook dinner for us. Thanks to you
I make the
best meatloaf!!
I remember falling asleep almost every night on the couch watching tv with
you,
while you fell asleep on your recliner. That recliner was so important
it had a
name: "Dad's Chair". And then when it got late you would wake
me up and tell
me to go to sleep in my own room. I think I did that because Rhonda
was
always in our room and she hated me back then. I guess I can't blame
her;
after all, she was the baby for 6 years until I came along.
I remember when we had CB's and once in a while I would call you on the
CB on
your way home from work, when I thought you were close enough to the house.
It was always to ask you to pick up a gallon of milk. You were always
on
channel 19 and your handle was "Coffee Bean" because of your obvious
addiction to coffee.
I remember you taking us swimming and throwing us into the water off your
back. I had to plug my nose until I learned how to blow out of it
to avoid the
"water up my nose" feeling. And I remember all the other road trips
we took
during your summer vacations.
I remember going with you to choir practice. I learned all the words
and sung
along in my head until I was old enough to be in the choir too! That
was a happy
day!
I remember watching the Patriots! I can't believe you got me hooked
on
football. Don't even try it with that racing stuff! =oÞ
I remember getting into an argument with Roland, storming out of the room,
and
hearing you behind me saying to Roland, "Now look what you've done... you've
upset Bethie!"
I remember when you gave me a card for no reason at all. It wasn't
my
birthday, it wasn't Christmas... it was just a card telling me that you
thought I
was special. I still have that card.
I remember you buying my first car. We never did get that thing running.
I
remember you giving me my first computer, and then my second computer.
(Aren't you due for another upgrade soon?! hehehe)
I remember when you came in my room the morning after Dwayne broke up with
me and prayed with me. That prayer got me through the day.
I remember, a few short months later, you walked me down the isle to give
me
to Dwayne. How could you after he broke my heart like that?!
(Just kidding!)
You really had no choice because, just like you, I'm very stubborn and
determined to do things my own way.
I know those may seem like small things and I know at times you feel like
you
didn't show us enough love. But I've learned that sometimes love
is
demonstrated best in small, quiet ways. I want you to know that although
I've
had many struggles growing up, I have become a happy, self-confident young
woman. And although the words were never spoken; I've always been
your
little girl.
January 24, 2000 - Monday Night
So did I mention I have 3 cavities? I'm bummed out about that.
I don't want
my mouth to be filled with fillings. =o( That will make 4 fillings
in my mouth.
Yuck. But hey, look on the bright side... I got a new tooth brush
and it's navy
colored. My favorite color. Special huh?
Manda, Amber, and I went to the movies the other night to see "Girl
Interrupted". It was a great movie but the theater was packed and
there were
4 teenage boys that kept crawling over us to get to their seats.
Everytime they
did that it was a huge production. I always feel uncomfortable during
those
moments because I'm not sure whether I'd be in the way more if I stood
up and
stepped back against my seat or if I just sat there. I just sat there
since they
didn't give me much time to do anything differently. It would have
been fine
but halfway through the movie 3 of them decided they were leaving, the
4th
stayed behind. 15 minutes after those 3 left one of them came back
and said,
"Hey Drew," and the 4th remaining obnoxious teenage boy just waved him
to
leave. I took one look at Amanda and we both started giggling.
I have no clue
why it was so funny but it was.
10 Things I Hate About Winter:
1. Dry skin
2. Scraping the windows
3. Wearing a heavy winter coat
4. Taking Keisha out in the cold
5. Severe static electricity
6. Craving Icee's even though it's 20 below
7. Slipping on the ice
8. Falling after slipping
9. Hurting my ankle after falling
10. Did I mention dry skin?
I could probably think of 20 things I hate about winter but I guess I'll
spare
you the negativism. =o)
We watched N'Sync tonight on "Making The Video". They are a bunch
of little
cutie pies! I still like the Backstreet Boys better, sorry Jen!
Hehehehe... here
I am, a grown woman of 29 (almost 30 but we won't go there just yet!) liking
boy bands that are normally adored by teenage girls. I am quite a
geek but I
don't mind. =oÞ
Amanda is doing really well at work. We have a good time and giggle
most of
the day long. I'm surprised that everyone there can handle both of
us! The
funniest thing though is that the first call that Amanda took I don't think
she
was prepared yet and hadn't thought about how she was going to end the
call.
So she ended up saying, "Okay, I'm going to hang up now" to the customer.
It
was SO funny! I laughed my head off! The bummer of the whole
thing is that
once she gets fully trained I won't even be working with her, because we
have
different hours. That stinks thoroughly and completely.
My little hubby is so cute. He did 4 loads of laundry today.
I was so proud!
Not only that but he vacuumed and cleaned and just was a very good boy.
You
gotta love days like these!
So we went to our friend's church on Sunday. It's such a small church
- only
about 20 to 30 people all together. And the benches are so hard they
hurt my
bum bum after awhile. It's okay though. It's so different from
our church and
I experience a strange freedom there that I don't feel at our church.
It's laid
back and no one knows me there. Everyone is really friendly.
It's just
different. And of course they already have Dwayne up on stage playing
his
flute with the band and stuff like that. Next week he's scheduled
to do the
special music. That man, I swear, can fit in anywhere. It's
amazing. I wish I
was more like that.
I want a digital camera. When I get one... look out, cause I won't
be able to be
stopped! Hehehehehe.
Well I've got to go to bed... Good night everyone!
important useless facts:
** i'm drinking ice water right now
** my tummy is so full of water when I move I can feel the sloshing
** but water is good for you
** much better for you than icee's
** blue raspberry icee's are the best
** they are better than blue raspberry slush puppies
** the only place around here that sells icee's is the movie theater
** i wonder if you can go to the movies and buy an icee without seeing
a movie?
** hmmmmm
January 26, 2000 - Wednesday Night
My brother, Rick, informed me that I needed to change my background.
I was
trying not to bog my journal down with flashy graphics; after all, I want
people
to pay attention to my writing and not the pictures. But he's right,
the same
background gets boring after awhile so I decided to listen to him.
Now Rick, it
doesn't happen often when someone else is right instead of me, so you need
to
celebrate while you can. =o) (At least that is how it is in
my own delusional
mind.)
So I know that I'm a bit early for Valentine's Day but it never hurts to
get
into the spirit ahead of time. Especially since Valentine's Day is
also my
wedding anniversary. I love the fact that my anniversary is on the
most
romantic day of the year. It seemed kind of corny at first but it
comes at just
the right time in the middle of winter to give Dwayne and I a nice break
from
everything else and concentrate on eachother.
So while we're on the subject of love... As I was sitting here making these
graphics I was listening to my Jessica Simpson CD; the song "I Wanna Love
You Forever" was on. It made me laugh because I was listening to
the words of
the chorus:
"I wanna love you forever, and this is all I'm asking from you; ten thousand